Crushing

My elder son had a fever and (as a result) had nightmares yesterday.
We ran into his room to him screaming "NO NO NO" in horror. This
morning my wife and I talked about it, what could he have been
dreaming about?

Honestly, he could have been dreaming about taking a shower, which
elicited the same response last week. Still scared the bejesus out of
our younger child who was sleeping peacefully in the room with him.

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Some days I awake with the feeling of complete inadequacy. Like I
have been revealed as a terrible person. Guilt. Crushing shame.

I admit, I'm not close to perfect, but I was just as not perfect
yesterday, and I felt on top of the world.

Sometimes this feeling is very hard to shake.